It's starting. My life was going SO well for such a long run that I was thinking I was finally doing everything right. But now, as per usual, the universe has turned and bad luck is following me everywhere. I had a wonderful summer and the beginning of school was amazing. Everything was great and grand and I felt just generally awesome about life.
But the shit started happening again. It began with me losing my license on the subway when I brought it as a precaution to avoid problems. Then, I poured expired milk on my bowl of cereal. Then, I go through a week of insomnia. Then, something I've been waiting to buy myself is FINALLY restocked and as soon as I FINALLY get it, it breaks on the walk home. Then, when out at a lovely dinner, I get this horrible headache that just will NOT go away and keeps getting worse and worse until my vision is blurring, I lose all appetite, become terribly lethargic and apathetic, and my entire body starts shaking. Then, I lose my room key in class. Then, I get violently ill for a few hours at home. Then, I completely misread my midterm assignment and have to restart it all over again. ACK!
It's what I can only think of calling the see-saw effect. Life seems to go in these cycles for me--a bout of good and a bout of bad. What's weird, however, is that the magnitude is generally always equal. So, since I've been having such a good, decent time and lifestyle over the past few months, I suppose the universe decided that my time was over and I needed to be brought back down. My good side of the see-saw had peaked and I needed to swing low, bringing the bad side up. And quickly.
I just hope that the rapidity of the bad things--though each small but sharp pangs--will equate to the lengthiness of my decent months, and this down swing will lighten up soon. I'm okay with an alright life. I just hate this part right here where everything seems to suck ass.
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Waiting for my upswing,
The A.S.S.
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