A Spectrum-Spanning Mental Concoction

I'm in the weirdest mood imaginable.  There literally is no word to describe it--it's the biggest, oddest amalgamation of emotions, a concoction that veritably spans the spectrum.  I don't know what I'm feeling and I don't know how to handle it.  How to react to it.  My mind is literally so jumbled that I can't think.  I really can't.

There's denial, despair, rage, ecstatic elation, love, romance, hope, promise, inspiration, excitement, anxiety, anticipation, frustration, confusion, unrest, envy, sorrow, mourning, comfort, safety, cliffhangers, relaxation, ACK!  All swirling and tumbling around my mind--what the hell am I supposed to call that?  What kind of state is this!

Well, it sucks pretty badly.  I won't lie.  I wish I could tell you all the events that transpired and instigated these emotions, but they're incredibly specific and I rely on this anonymity so much as I write.  So I'm telling you how I'm feeling, even though I can't.

So if you see a girl whose face is saying nothing at all--or perhaps everything at once--it might just be me.



...what am I?
The A.S.S.